2 posts tagged “motherhood”
Not that this day is a huge deal in my life. I know the day signifies a major milestone for our country but aside from the hubby getting a day off from work and the excitment of fireworks I don't often ponder the meaning of Independence Day like I would Thanksgiving or Christmas or Easter.
This day does bring back memories though. Two years ago I was quite preggers. My due date was still over a week away but with concern over my high blood pressure and trips to the OB every few days I got the impression I'd be in the hospital with a baby before my "official" due date. I was put on bedrest near the end of June and was not able to go to the Rockeis fireworks game with Andy on the 3rd. He went and met some friends there. Unfortunately he did not get to enjoy the and of the game or the fireworks after. I was laying on the couch watching TV and began to see stars. A scary thing that could indicate preeclampsia. So after calling Andy he rushed home to take me down to the hospital. Thankfully everything checked out fine and they sent me home.
After yet another trip to the OB, I was scheduled for an induction. So we went in the Saturday after the 4th that year and Stephan came a little over 24 hours later. When it gets to be this time of year, that is probably the memory that I will most likely think about. The day the perfect little boy came into my life. And to think I so wanted him to be a girl ... maybe next time.
Yay! I had the time to finish my book ...
I must say that in the end I liked it. A good reminder to tell the truth to kids (as much as they can deal with at whatever their developmental age) ... they always figure things out anyway and then they won't be pissed at you for lying and might retain their faith and trust in you even if the truth hurts. Not to give anything away, but the thing that redeemed the book for me was the author killing someone off. Usually that upsets me and at first I was annoyed, but it really did bring everything together and wrap the book up nicely, along with the other surprise but alas I don't want to completely ruin anything for someone who hasn't read the book and wants to.
Here's a quote from the book that really resonated with me:
"This is motherhood for you, " said my own mother. "Going through life with your heart outside your body."
Just struck me as an interesting thought. I want the best for my son, I love him dearly. For the moment I'm the center (or mostly so) of his little universe. All is well when I'm nearby. As he grows this will change. He'll go to kindergarten, middle school, high school and maybe leave for college. He's mine for a season and God's forever. Wherever he goes I'll think about him, wonder how things are going for him and probably want to pick up the pieces when things fall apart ... he'll always have a piece of my heart with him. I think my biggest job as a mother is to make sure he has confidence, enough to weather the ups and downs of life, enough to know when he needs the help of others, enough to know he needs his Savior through good times and bad.
